My love will find you
Benjamin passed away in my arms, surrounded by the infinite love of our family, Saturday, May 24th, 2025, after a heroic effort to tame his cancer and extend his earth-side years. Flashbacks of his final days, playing on a loop, have taken up residence in my mind the past few days. The first of which is the moment immediately after we learned Ben's disease was traveling full tilt toward a heart-breakingly premature terminus. His sole response to the news was to remove his BiPap mask and utter, "I want my girls. I just want to be with my girls." For context, Ben was in the Huntsman Intensive Care unit at this point, vacillating in and out of atrial fibrillation (a-fib) with rapid ventricular response (RVR), and on BiPap for hypercarbic respiratory failure. He had been hospitalized for two weeks and had traversed the heinous and cataclysmic events set in motion by his advanced disease, which left his mind, body, and spirit in a state of exhaustion I cannot even begin concep...
